After the end of a long investigation, at the end of a long case and while waiting for a decision from a jury there is often a feeling or sense of helplessness - it can be a challenging and sometimes unhealthy process not unlike the ending of a contentious relationship.
Boredom, anticipation, excitement, false hopes, second guessing -- did I do this right, did I mess up there, I should have said this, or I wish I hadn't done that -- fear of loss, tossing and turning, highs and lows -- especially after a case and trial you feel so passionately about, such as this one.
For some, it is easy to lose sight of what is important in life - to keep a healthy balance of things - to keep things in perspective - to step back and smell the roses, not just coffee - for trial lawyers, defense and prosecution alike. All kidding aside, that is why I believe Ted Well's tears and burst of emotion in his closing argument were sincere.
When you feel so passionately about a case, want to win it so badly, worked so hard on it, for so long, and ultimately it comes down to being at the mercy of others with all your hopes and trust resting in their hands -- it can be an unsettling business. Personally, I have seen some people lose it a little, but we move on and never try to lose sight of the truth and what is truly important in life...
Like every relationship we have ever been in, no two cases are ever alike. Nonetheless, it can be a grueling exercise in uncertainty and a difficult waiting process. It can take its toll. It ages you, causes you to lose hair, lose other things, trust me, I know.
When the jury returns with a verdict today or tomorrow, as I suspect they will in this trial (barring the cursed mistrial), it will be a time to celebrate or lick one's wounds, and move on...a return to normalcy...until the next case comes along.
I want a raise and a vacation! ;)
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